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LYRICS

Here you will find examples of lyrics I have written. 

I would also invite you to visit www.sovietzion.com the website of the contemporary opera that I wrote the libretto to.

Kindly direct any professional enquiries to gileshowe@hotmail.com

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I'M SUPPOSED TO BE HAVING FUN

A song about being in a nightclub and realizing you're too old and would rather be at home with your cat...

DEMO

Dance

You want to dance now?

To be honest, I’d rather be at home.

Maybe, have I outgrown this party life?

Maybe, is it time to recognize I've changed...

Midnight 

I’m in the club

Wasted

I want to go home

And be with my baby

Shots!

They want to do... shots?

I want to go home

And be with my baby

Random strangers everywhere

Cheap perfumes compete together in the smoky air

Attitude? Already I have had it up to there

And I'm supposed to be having fun?

And I’m supposed to be having fun

Am I supposed to be having fun

 

Watching girls fly into predatory arms 

Drinking lurid shots clearly designed to do them harm

Watching packs of men behave like lions in a cage 

My clock wasn’t ticking, but now I feel my age...

 

And I’m supposed to be having fun!

And I’m supposed to be having fun?

Suddenly I feel as if I'm visiting a zoo

I see it now so clearly that there’s nothing I can do

I can’t unsee this vision now it is my point of view

Every other persons having fun

Id rather be at home 

And I'm supposed to be having fun

Aren't I supposed to be having fun?

 

Midnight

I’m in the club

Wasted

I want to go home

And be with my baby

Dance

You want to dance now?

I’d rather be home...

Have I outgrown this?

 

Am I supposed to be having fun yet?

Men push passed all drenched in sweat

Think they’re the best that I can get

Everyone else seems to enjoy this more than me

 

And I'm supposed to be having fun?

 

I worry though, that maybe did I leave the oven on?

And then the house burns down,

In fact it burns right to the ground,

And from the ashes nothing but more sorrow will arise

And it will be my fault

Because I came here

And you ask me

"Shall we dance?"

And I’m supposed to be having fun.

And I’m supposed to be having fun!

 

And if the house is gone and I am homeless on the street 

With nothing in my mouth to eat or shoes upon my feet

And as my tired bones heave my possessions in a cart

I will know for sure deep in my heart 

It was because I came here.

Shall we dance?

 

My body will be thrown of course into an unmarked grave

Forgotten as I’m judged for the mistakes that I have made. 

And as I burn in hell for living in delicious sin

I have to blame myself for the predicament I’m in

 

And I’m supposed to be having fun

I’m supposed to be having fun?!

 

Midnight

I’d rather be naked

Under a duvet

At home with my baby

Midnight

Has long since gone

And as the sun rises

I turn into stone!!

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HELLO OLD TIMER

A song about why you should always be kind to the old loner at the gay bar

DEMO (partial)

Bona to vada your dolly old eke

I don’t look at you like you’re a freak

I see the new set with disgust in their eyes

As if you’re already dead, covered in flies

Arriving in style as if they own the whole bar

Like exotic princesses who’ve come from afar

But you know the truth because you’ve been here before

And watched thousands more of them pass through those doors

There once was a time when you felt just like that

And you’d spend all day preening yourself like a cat

You’d sneak out at night and you’d come here to pose

And dressed in your finery look down your nose

At anyone you felt wore uglier clothes!

Alone in the wild you were under attack

With a target always on your back

But in a group you felt that you could be strong

In a group you felt like you might belong

Together you can face the day

Whatever drama comes your way

In a world that wishes you were dead

You would choose to live instead

In technicolor surround sound

As if your feet don’t touch the ground

And un-disowned you’d form a bond

That would extend far far beyond

A private life of secrecy

In fact you’d form a family

Encouraging the brave obsession

To overcome the gay oppression

You were there throughout the fight 

A champion of equal rights

Which didn’t come through thick or fast

It’s amazing how your patience last

But success came with a cost

And one by one by one you lost

Your friends, your lovers

No-one cared

You didn’t know if you’d be spared

As sickness took more than a few

Beloved friends so dear to you

And as they each died all the shame

Overshadowed lives and names

Hidden far from public view

They died alone as you might too

And even though you did survive

Your grief is keeping you alive

Your straight friends couldn’t comprehend

Although they tried to be your friend

Wiping when you leave your seat

And burning what you use to eat

Their children take up all their days

Which is a blessing anyways 

As now with little that you share

Mutually it’s hard to care

And finding little to talk about

Is why you choose to not reach out

Instead you live a life of sin

Expressing shame you feel within

Imposed upon you by the world

You wish to have been born a girl

Just so that you can love a man

Every way that you possibly can

Before pride, fierceness, the house down, yesss

You were just a gayboy in a dress

Trying on your mother’s shoes

Whilst she was busy making food

You knew somehow that this was wrong

Although it filled your heart with song

And so you hid it in deep inside

And steeled yourself instead of cried 

And took a wife and sired a brat

Although you never wanted that

And hid yourself, denied your heart

Until it tore you right apart

Perceived as weak but you are great

You endure through so much hate

And fought such battles all the way

that these queens can reign in this bar today

I salute you friend, and raise a glass

Let these young queens show their arse

One day soon their youth will stop

And suddenly their hair will drop

And just like you and me

They’ll also turn 30, 40, 60

It will be their turn to scoff

When some young queen starts mouthing off

The reason I know every word to be true

Is because they were me and one day I’ll be you

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THE NEON LIGHTS

A song about being in an unhappy relationship...

DEMO

The neon lights flicker on the wall

What did it matter to them that I’m unhappy?

Doors swing on their hinges back and forth

Back and forth and back and forth and

My heart beats out an irregular rhythm

Another fly is on the wall

Laughing, joking, pointing, laughing

As anxious as I was before

Nothing that you say can appease me

My heart beats out an irregular rhythm

Do I like the way that you make me feel

I don’t know if I like the way that I feel

Words cannot describe exactly how I feel

Inside

I’m heavy from the jewels that you bought me

Though that’s not to say that I’m ungrateful.

Your perfume still helps me sleep at night

But when I dream of you I have a nightmare 

Do I like the way that you make me feel

I don’t know if I like the way that I feel

Words cannot describe exactly how I feel

Inside

If I wasn't scared to be lonely

I would deal with you in a phone call

Life gets in the way of such simpple plans...

Do I like the way that you make me feel

I don’t know if I like the way that I feel

Words cannot describe exactly how I feel

Inside

EVERY ROSE

A song about a wretched person

DEMO

EVERY ROSE

 

The day begins and ends

With thoughts about the color blue

Glancing through old magazines 

And reading about yesterday’s news

You bathe in a bathtub and dry yourself in tears

You eat with a fork and play around with the knife

Every rose has a thorn in your side

Every time you smile you cry

You say your bitter

But somewhere inside you’re sweet

It’s hard to get through the day but you feel obliged to try

Your nights are short or long with fucked up dreams

Your heart is colder than ice cream

You never touch sweet things at all

You worry about being too self indulgent

But shouldn’t worry your little head

Focus on instead how to get out of bed

You’re really not that much fun anymore

We’re you ever that much fun before?

Ev'ry rose has a thorn in your side

Ev'ry time you smile you cry

You say your bitter

but somewhere inside you’re sweet

You bite your hands like they’re made of meat

You hate to be around family

You burden them with company

You don’t feel involved but you set yourself apart

You wonder how and when you’ll fall apart

 

Your beating heart is deafening 

Oh you wish it would stop so you could fall asleep again

 

You play with your fork

And fantasize with the knife

You’re not brave enough to take control of your life

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NO PLACE LIKE HOME

A song about feeling unwelcome at home

DEMO

Please make yourself at home in my house

Myself, I never felt that way

Even in my home today

 

Home 

Where the pepperpot and the roasting pan

And the staircase and the ceiling fan

Trigger times I’d soon forget

Of sadness, anguish, hate, regret

 

Home

With Swarovski birds and decorative spoons

I wait for death in the living room

The anemic hum in the stale air

Appliances moan with my despair

 

And the tired smell of potpourri

Brings it all right back to me

Suddenly I’m ten again

With no escape, without a friend

Waiting for the pain to end

Hiding from a belt, a fist,

Wondering if I’d be missed

So no, I don’t want to go home

 

Home

The wood chip and the garden path

The clock that ticks on my behalf 

The sofa bed, the oven door

That table lamp, that chest of drawers

 

Home

Where I was locked in and controlled

Incarcerated, no parole 

Under lock and under key 

And under constant scrutiny

 

Home

I walked on eggshells day and night

And everything became a fight

Honestly afraid to laugh

For all the Shame on my behalf 

 

Home now is where I lay my hat

And keep my things

And feed my cat

Home now is just the house im in

four walls, a roof, a tub, some gin

I overfill it hoarding chintz

To brighten up the gloom

I suffocate from sorrow right here in this room

 

But if this place is razed to the ground

I’d stop a moment to look around 

On a pile of ashes, in a heap of dirt

are still those years suffering and hurt

Looking in the rubble for scraps of affection

Desperate for a push in an opposite direction

Desperately seeking some kind of affirmation

I'm always searching in the trash for precious things

 

Unshackling my limbs from chains that bind

Ill run away from what I’d like to leave behind

I’ll run away from...

 

Home

The wardrobe handles, and the shed

The doorbell chime, the child-size bed

Monotony runs through it all

That sadness there behind closed doors

 

I still try not to click my heels

Despite how tempting it may fell

Just in case I wind up back at

 

Home

Top bunk in a prison cell

Is this life or is it hell?

The trauma of my childhood

Hasn’t done me any good

There’s so much more I won’t reveal

Because of how it makes me feel

Anyway, on to my escape

My new life will of course be great

Ill fall in love and start again

My lover will be my best friend

 

Just him and me against it all

If I’d go down he’d take the fall

And like a phoenix we’ll both rise 

I’d be the apple of his eye

 

I’m glad for you your life’s a breeze

Belonging everywhere you go 

I’ve sought this all around the world

And still I’m told that there’s no place like

 

Home

Where my husband tells me how useless I am

And doesn’t really give a damn

Criticizing every move

As if he’s got something to prove

 

Home

A place we can perpetuate 

All our trauma, all the hate

And act like everything is fine

Although it’s like this all the time

 

Home

Where the dog gets far more love than me

And alone at night I just sit and feel

Obsessing on this burning need

I've always had

To just be freed

To somehow escape being me

And all these thoughts twist in my head

Until I wish that I was dead 

 

Home

I just need a space to breathe

And somewhere to believe

That there’s room in the world for someone like me

OVER YOU

A song for a broken heart

DEMO

I am so foolish

I knew you would break my heart

Though I’ve known from the start

Now I’m falling apart

 

Fun while it lasted

But I still want more

Don’t you?

Who benefits from misery?

 

Why did I let myself do it?

I swore I’d not love again

Then you arrived and you shake my foundations

My heart is in the palm your hand!!

 

It’s what I wished for

In fact, it was more

But All my dreams have

Now been taken from me

 

I’m just not used to that kind of attention

Easily I fell in over my head

I must have scared you with how much I want this

I just cannot get you out of my head

 

You made me so happy

But now I’ve gone mad

The first I is what I had hoped for

The second I could not anticipate

 

I’ll look back fondly

but not for a while

First, I must deal with the pain

Forget

And get over myself

 

Forget and get over you 

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SHALL WE RECONCILE?

A song for an old friend

DEMO

Shall we Reconcile 

Even though it’s been a while

It’s shocking how much time has passed

Looking back upon the past

 

Shall we try again?

It wasn’t yesterday, my friend.

I’d like to ask if I can take your hand

No-one else knows what we share

Nobody else would even care

But we were both there way back when

We were close once, can we be again?

 

Can we move on together?

Even though we took a break

We needed distance

But took more time than we should have taken

 

Can we Reconnect?

Can we synchronize?

The question now is really

Whether we can unify

 

Are we still alike?

Do we still share anything?

I feel this is auspicious

And i hope that you agree

 

Time flies so fast

No-one can make it last

Unlike the past

When time stood still

there was no looking backwards then

 

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I realize at läst

That distance doesn’t change the päst

Lets make up for all that time

Shall we recombine?

 

I hope we can reconcile

Even though it’s been a while

I mean why not?

I’ll give it all I’ve got to give

 

After all, We have only one life to live

I'LL STILL BE ANGRY WHEN I'M SOBER

A song from a dysfunctional marriage

DEMO 1 (cunty) // DEMO 2 (operatic)

I'll still be angry when I'm sober

Nothing will have changed

I could leave you just like that!

It’s easily arranged

 

I’m telling you in certain terms I’ve had it up to there

Unfortunately, you’re too self-absorbed

to even care

 

Something like a magic trick

right before my eyes

My true love has transformed themself

to someone I despise

 

Im telling you directly now

So listen good and well

You have turned my happy home

into a living hell

 

Outrageous and not likely

that I’m the one at fault

Blah blah blah don’t talk to me about a pinch of salt

 

There’s no way at the heart of this

that I’m the one to blame

Although for sure tomorrow

will be word-for-word the same

 

It does take two to tango, there are two sides taking score

Which isn’t what I wanted though

and don’t want any more 

 

So somehow let’s make up again

Like everything’s alright

Routinely I am sure we’ll carry on tomorrow night

 

Uneasy peace but it’s ok

It gets us through another day

You haven’t heard a word I’ve said

So fuck it all, I’m off to bed

 

I couldn’t sleep, let’s take a walk

neutral ground where we can talk

And rake over old coals again

Until I drive you round the bend

And you will drive me up a wall

And raise your voice and start it all

Driving me in turn to drink

The only way I’ll sleep a wink.

The nightly circus thus begins

So fill my glass and strap on in

 

 

 

//

 

I’m equally at fault. 

How can I forgive you for that?

It’s difficult to hate you

when I know we’re playing games

We argue about nothing though

And every fights the same

 

//

 

 

I'll still be angry when you’re sober

Nothing will have changed

I should kill you. Thought of that?

It’s your fault I’m deranged

 

I’m telling you my darling

you are getting on my nerves

Keep it up, and maybe

you will get what you deserve

 

 

Something wicked like a curse

right before my face

My lover has transformed themself

Into a disgrace!

 

Im telling you directly now

So hear ye, listen up

Don’t try to interrupt me

I am ready to erupt

 

Totally Impossible that I’m the one at fault

Although sometimes I have to take that

 with a pinch of salt

 

There’s no way at the core of this

that I’m the one to blame

Though I can be a dark cloud

and tomorrow looks like rain

 

You never miss a beat

you’re very good at taking score

Which isn’t what I asked you for

and don’t want any more 

 

So somehow let’s make up again,

find our inner peace

Tomorrow you’ll transform once more

from beauty to a beast 

 

Uneasy truce for one More night

It gets us through till our next  fight

It won’t sink in, a word I’ve said

So To hell with it, I’m off to bed

 

I couldn’t sleep, I needed air

And you pretend like I don’t care.

We pick at wounds and our scabs bleed

Which really isn’t what we need.

I bang my head against the wall

You raise your voice above it all

You stomp around and cause a scene

You know exactly what I mean 

The nightly circus thus begins

Go fill your glass I’ll strap on in

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MARY JANE

A song about marijuana

DEMO 1 // DEMO 2 // DEMO 3 // DEMO 4

Mary Jane

Mary Jane

I wish we’d never met

I can’t remember what it is you’re helping me forget!

Mary Jane

Mary Jane

I wish it wasn’t true

Mary Jane

Mary Jane

that I depend on you

 

Mary Jane you’re with me from the

Morning to the night

You’re strong for me when i am weak

And haven’t strength to fight

 

You coddle me protecting from the hardship of the world

You blanket me in kindness

youre my special little girl

 

Mary Jane you’ve been a constant through my adult life

If you were human not a plant I’d take you for my wife

 

But sometimes there are times when I do want to let you go

But your loving kindness is the best love that I know

 

Mary Jane

Mary Jane

I wish we’d never met

I don’t want to remember what you’re helping me forget

ROAD KILL

A song about finding your strength

DEMO 1 // DEMO 2 // DEMO 3

Driving through the country roads

Every hundred feet I see

 

Roadkill roadkill roadkill roadkill

Smell It in the air

Crunch under my wheels

When I get up in my feels

I think of you and all I see is roadkill! Roadkill! Roadkill!!

Armadillos, raccoons, possums, cats

All lying there dead

How about that

Innocent lives ruined and spoilt

Pause for thought as they lie there and rot

 

They bake in the sun and flies flock to the smell

Remember how you turned my life into hell?

 

Turtles, birds, gators, coyote

The smell in the air makes me feel so dirty

Food for thought

How about that

Innocence, happiness, banished and gone

In the blink of an eye you hit it, you run

 

I often felt hit by a truck

Unfair comparison? Don’t give a fuck.

 

False equivalence, for I am not dead 

I just get lost inside my head

And on these winding country roads

Driving over bats and toads

 

Roadkill roadkill la la la la la

Roadkill roadkill

La la la crunch

Not scared of you no more, no sir,

I eat your kind for lunch

Roadkill roadkill la la la a squish

My foot on the pedal I’m outta here, bish

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OLD FLAME

A song in a Swinglish style about the one that got away

DEMO 1 // DEMO 2 // DEMO 3

It’s remarkable really

Being so aware of what I need

So involved in my emotions 

yet detached from how I feel 

 

Old flame

Do your lips still taste the same?

Do they still taste the same , your kisses?

Is it still the same, your smile?

Maybe, will it be nice? To see you after all these times.

 

Maybe, will it feel right?

To have you close enough to touch

I think too much…

I think too much is never enough 

 

Even strangers see it simply

Surely they can’t all be wrong

When we are in a room together

There is electricity

 

Old flame

You still look at me the way you used to

You have that look in your eyes also, too

Old flame

Can you keep me warm?

Can you thaw my heart?

Unfreeze my soul?

We should have spent our lives together

Instead we just grew old

I gave you everything I had!

You left me in the cold.

I’ve almost forgotten, but I have not

I’ve almost forgotten, not all, but a lot...

You still look at me the way you would

But I’m not sure if you should!

AROUND MY NECK

A song reminiscing about a dangerous ex

DEMO​​​​

I could burst into tears or song because I feel so lonely

And there’s no-one to console me so ok here comes a solo

 

I’ll raise my voice out loud,

You’re not here, so no need to fear it

But I’ll sing as if you are for you’re the one that ought to hear it.

 

Around my neck is a charm

I still wear a lock of your hair

We shall see in the future if the memory will break me

 

And we shall see if my heart can be brave and keep on beating

For my scars still remind me of those nights we shared together

 

My constant reminder of what’s lurking in your shadow

you are violent, tempestuous,

Outrageous, unremorseful

 

I’ve snatches of specifics

But would rather not recall them 

I blocked them out so not to see the writing on the wall then 

 

Around my neck there’s a noose

And you keep pulling it tighter

Could I get over you even if I really wanted to?

Under my bed in a box I still keep all of my journals 

I still read them sometimes to re-live my disillusionment

 

Do I wish it had never happened?

Maybe, but that would be too easy

For I wouldn’t want to miss out on the pleasure that you gave me

 

After the pleasure

You stole the joy from my life for a very long time

Which I haven’t forgiven 

Though loneliness plays with my mind

 

Around my neck are your hands

You still have me in a choke hold

We shall see in the future if these memories will break me

 

Under my bed in a box I still keep all your love letters

Will the past still seduce me though the future’s clearly better?

 

No, this should be locked away

Saved for such a rainy day

When im alone to reminisce

And think how little I really miss

For a yolk belongs in an egg

Not on my shoulders, last I checked

So take this load I used to bear

Do what you want with it, I don’t care

I’ll just keep myself correct

Without your dead weight around my neck

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IMOGEN

A song about the insufferable girls I went to college with

DEMO 1 // DEMO 2 //  DEMO 3  // DEMO 4

DEMO 5  //  DEMO 6  //  DEMO 7

Imogen Imogen Imogen

Your name rolls of my tongue

Imogen Imogen Imogen

you make me wanna

 

Come

on over to your place

Let’s have dinner

I’ll prepare us something light

I hope you wear the silk chemise 

But wear whatever dress you please

Your beauty drops me to my knees

 

Imogen Imogen Imogen

A different polish on every finger

Imogen Imogen Imogen

When she came back from Goa she had a tattoo

 

Your dress looks so pretty 

Over there on the floor

Your panties hanging up there on the door

If you’re looking for your bra

it can’t have gone too far

 

You’re truffling for underwear

I think some of its over there

Your blouse is draped over that chair

The one we sat on when you braided my hair

 

Imogen Imogen Imogen

Will you ever finish your useless degree?

Imogen Imogen Imogen

Let’s have children.

Two. No, three.

 

Imogen Imogen Imogen

Tell me more about your gap yah

Adventures with Tilly, Millie, and Billy

Imogen Imogen Imogen

And all the good you did for those orphans in Nicaragua

 

Your sandals are over there by the hearth

You’ve broken an earring, I think, for here’s half.

Your socks are in the wash ‘cause they were sour

And the cycles been on over half an hour

Which is to say there’s a half an hour yet

So if we’re quick, on your marks get set.

 

Imogen Imogen Imogen

I love you to throw me around the room

Imogen Imogen Imogen

If I could reach that high I’d hand you the moon

 

Imogen Imogen Imogen 

When I arrived you’d been crying, but as I leave you’ve a smile

Imogen Imogen Imogen

It’d be great to see you More than only once in a while

 

Imogen Imogen Imogen

Your kisses taste like persimmon candy

Imogen Imogen Imogen

Are there advantages to having an unusual name?

 

Your scarf’s up on the lamp up there where it was flung

It catches the light, casts a colorful shadow

My watch is over there on the counter

The alarms about to ring

Telling you one thing

That it’s time!

It’s time!

 

Imogen Imogen Imogen

You were fast asleep in a dream about horses

Imogen Imogen Imogen

They were brightly colored and lived on an island

 

Imogen Imogen Imogen

Wake up! You dozed off again.

You said you’ve been up for days.

Partying across time zones with glamorous gays

 

If you wanna take a shower that’s fine

I’d sooner take one here than at mine

We can lather up and rub a dub dub

We haven’t don’t it in the tub!

You can comb my hair, massage my back

I’ll quickly shave my sack and crack.

We’ll dry off fast, towel each other down,

And once again we’ll go to town:

We’ll fling the toweling robes asunder,

Clapping cheeks like peals of thunder!

 

Imogen Imogen Imogen

Unconventionally you refuse cutlery

Imogen Imogen Imogen

It’s charming, I think, not off-putting at all

 

Imogen Imogen Imogen

Having a lie in at silly o’clock

Imogen Imogen Imogen

Can’t help it, I love it when you suck on

 

Persimmon candies

I love the taste of those persimmon candies

On your lips

When I kiss you goodnight

And kiss you awake

 

Imogen Imogen Imogen

Who are you today?

I'm often attracted to people

Who remind me of you

 

Imogen Imogen Imogen

You whimsical thing, I see you humming tuneless songs

Imogen Imogen Imogen

It’s funny to see you startle so easily when I say "boo!"

SHE A COUNTRY GIRL

An American song about a country girl off to the big city​​​​

DEMO

She a country girl,

The very best in the whole wide world.

Gone off to the city for a career.

 

Born right here in Texas,

But grew up in Tennessee,

She gone trav’lin yonder chasing dreams.

 

Ain’t no misogynist,

It’s just those lips I really miss.

So come on home now darlin’,

Where you belong.

 

Got herself an education,

Knows about all kinda things,

She all fancy with her suits and diamond rings.

 

You can take the girl outta the country,

But not the country outta the girl.

You can lead a horse to water,

Only a girl can drive you to drink

 

You can take the girl outta the country,

A mighty shame though, dontcha think?

You can drive my truck ‘cross Texas,

Only a girl can drive you to drink.

 

Swapped her pick up truck for the metro,

Gave her daddy back the keys,

Said ‘I’m headin’ for the big apple,

Where I won’t be needing these’.

 

She hung up her Stetson,

Swapped her cowboy boots for heels,

Boxed her smith and Wesson,

And got all in her feels.

 

She walked around the cornfield

Said a prayer under the moon,

She promised all the horses

That she would come back soon.

 

But she’s now drinking cocktails,

Or busy at a brunch.

She hasn’t time for lookin’ back

Although I have a hunch

That though she dropped her accent

And doesn’t drink sweet tea,

She’ll always be my Southern belle,

always sweet to me.

 

Oh darlin, come on home soon.

Nothin here has changed.

The only thing about me different is maybe that I’ve aged,

But in my heart no different.

I still love you so.

In fact, your loving kindness is the only love I know.

 

I pine towards the city

Sending love along the line

I see you in reflections almost all the time.

Could you see me in the city, with my guitar and my plaid?

Forget them city slickers, I’m the best you ever had.

 

Do you see me there on sidewalks, on puddles in the rain?

On dirt tracks in the country them I see you just the same.

And in the gleam of sunlight on my tractors glossy edge

and in the topiary, am I in love with a hedge?

 

I see you in my minds eye though you’re far away from me,

Hurry home my southern belle,

So’s you can marry me.

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SINFUL WICKED WAYS

A song about being a vampire and using dating apps to find prey

DEMO

The alarm clock does what it’s supposed to

Rudely bring me back to life

I was happy in my dream

I was just about to..

Nevermind

 

Up pops the toaster

I’m underachieving already

I’ve barely brushed my teeth and whoosh the day is gone

 

I’m anxious about nothing

That’s how I pass the time

Anticipating both with dread and trepidation my temptation

 

As the dusk falls twilight turns to night 

Like the wolf I must obey the moon

dark arts, daybreak comes too soon

 

I have to satisfy my hunger

Craving pounds of human flesh

Raking through the gutter // 

 

I’ll find the one that got away

To mend my battered heart one day

Until then I’ll enjoy the perks of all my sinful wicked ways

 

My sinful wicked ways, my sinful wicked ways! My sinful wicked ways my sinful wicked ways!

 

And in the morning as the world  awakes

And rubs it’s daylight in my face

The emptiness I feel inside reminds me that I’m still alive

 

Notifications

Substitute and compromise

Human interactions, facilitate dissatisfaction

 

Am i a villain?

Swiping left and swiping right

Making a selection

Deciding who will last the night

 

 

 

A predator

I’m preying on the weak

On those with too much shame to speak

Some people launch themselves at monsters 

 

 

I’m anxious about nothing

And so I pass the time

Anticipating both with dread and trepidation my temptation

 

As the dusk  falls....

 

 

Sinful wicked...

I WROTE YOUR NAME IN THE SAND

A song about letting go of an unrequited love

 

DEMO

It’s a cool night by the ocean

A quiet evening breeze

Gently rustles through the fronds

 of silhouetted trees

 

 

Incessantly, cicadas serenade the bugs and frogs

Retirees and ex pats walk along the beach their dogs

And up aboeve, a crescent moon hangs naked in the sky

Casually illuminating strangers passing by

One after another passes, will one catch my eye?

Competing with the sunset they would have to really try.

 

 

I write a name in the sand

The ocean tide nearly takes it away

I wipe a tear away

Because you left without saying goodbye

 

 

 

Traversing the horizon I can see a little boat

It strikes me unexpectedly symbolic of my hope

Wary of the lighthouse, the stars help plot it’s path

With the wind behind it I wish well on it’s behalf

I wonder where it’s going? Are they on their way to sea?

Speaking allegorically those sailors could be me.

 

A group of hippies strum guitars on washed up bits of wood

I’d join them in a singalong but not sure if I should

I don’t want to impose on anyone my misery

I’ll sing a secret song the wind can take right out to sea

Laalaa la La.......

 

 

I write your name in the sand

The ocean came and took it away

Im filled with sadness and pain

Because you left without saying goodbye

 

 

 

A small drop in the ocean, I’m giving it my tears 

Maybe in return it will wash away the years

Wasted running down dead ends and retracing my steps

It’s time to leave you in the past, I think it’s for the best

 

I wrote your name in the sand

The ocean came and took it away

Im free of sorrow and pain

 

Because with this I’m saying goodbye

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WHAT's GOOD FOR THE GOOSE

A song acknowledging someone's misgivings

DEMO 1  //  DEMO 2  //  DEMO 3  //  DEMO 4  //  DEMO 5  //  DEMO 6 // DEMO 7  //  DEMO 8  //  DEMO 9  //  DEMO 10

 

 

You ruined today

That’s another day gone

Why are you doing this to me?

 

Another day gone

Just a day of my life

Clearly it means nothing to you

 

The untruths and lies that you prioritze

Are turning you into someone I despise

And your temper's disgusting

Your attitude too

But I’m totally helpless there’s nothing to do

But to keep on pretending that some day you’ll change

And that somehow the pieces will be rearranged 

And the game could continue on leveler field

You’d take into account how your words make me feel

And not sharpen them spear like and aimed at my heart

Because your Jeckl and Hyde act has torn me apart!

Obviously this is too much to expect

So carry on letting your mouth run unchecked

And whilst your forked tongue is flapping and loose

Remember that saying:

“What’s good for the goose”.

Ooh! The goose!! Oooh the goose!

MORE FOOL YOU

Another song acknowledging someone's misgivings

DEMO 1  //  DEMO 2 

I can’t help but feel

I may have dodged a bullet

Yes I lose

but you lose too

So my darling 

More fool you

 

Yes I lose

but you loose too

So my darling 

More fool you

More fool you ooh ooh ooh 

More fool you ooh ooh ooh

 

Imagine

To have the world at your feet

And just kick it away

Like a can down a street

 

One red flag after another 

A whole parade of rouge

Crimson, scarlet, vermillion, maroon

How sad that it must end so soon

 

You have sown chaos in my heart

But come harvest time

Abandoned the plough

 

Yes I loose

But you lose too

So my darling 

More fool you

More fool you ooh ooh ooh 

More fool you ooh ooh ooh

 

Yes I loose

But you lose too

So my darling 

More fool you

More fool you ooh ooh ooh 

More fool you ooh ooh ooh

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HEAVEN KNOWS

Scene from a dysfunctional relationship

 

DEMO

It doesn't happen of a sudden

Things like this they happen slowly

Bit by bit as we grow older

More and more I start to wonder if this is the only way?

You're like this more and more each day

So round and round and round we go

In endless circles heaven knows

 

 

 

For years I thought that I could change you

Back to who I fell in love with

Many years have come and gone

And with them both my youth and patience

I suppose I've been naive!

Its hard to know what to believe

So round and round and round we go

In endless circles heaven knows

Must I divest from my-self just to be somebody?

And must I change who I am to accommodate you?

For heaven knows that I've tried to be patient with you

Heaven knows that I've tried...

 

Ev'ry day it grows a little bit by bit its getting stronger

Ev'ry day I hunger for a change and now I'm starving hungry

But it is a bitter pill

A thought that leaves me feeling ill

So round and round we go

In end-less circles heaven knows

Must I divest from myself just to be somebody?

And must I change who I am to accommodate you?

For heaven knows that I've tried to be patient with you

Heaven knows that I've tried

 

 

 

Is what I'd leave behind

Better than what I'd find?

Is it a waste of time,

Seeking some peace of mind?

Heaven truly knows that I have tried

Heaven truly knows that I have tried!

 

 

Must I divest from myself just to be somebody?

And must I change who I am to accommodate you?

For heaven knows that I've tried to be patient with you

Heaven knows that I've tried

© 2025 by Giles Howe

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