LYRICS
Here you will find examples of lyrics I have written.
I would also invite you to visit www.sovietzion.com the website of the contemporary opera that I wrote the libretto to.
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I'M SUPPOSED TO BE HAVING FUN
A song about being in a nightclub and realizing you're too old and would rather be at home with your cat...
Dance
You want to dance now?
To be honest, I’d rather be at home.
Maybe, have I outgrown this party life?
Maybe, is it time to recognize I've changed...
Midnight
I’m in the club
Wasted
I want to go home
And be with my baby
Shots!
They want to do... shots?
I want to go home
And be with my baby
Random strangers everywhere
Cheap perfumes compete together in the smoky air
Attitude? Already I have had it up to there
And I'm supposed to be having fun?
And I’m supposed to be having fun
Am I supposed to be having fun
Watching girls fly into predatory arms
Drinking lurid shots clearly designed to do them harm
Watching packs of men behave like lions in a cage
My clock wasn’t ticking, but now I feel my age...
And I’m supposed to be having fun!
And I’m supposed to be having fun?
Suddenly I feel as if I'm visiting a zoo
I see it now so clearly that there’s nothing I can do
I can’t unsee this vision now it is my point of view
Every other persons having fun
Id rather be at home
And I'm supposed to be having fun
Aren't I supposed to be having fun?
Midnight
I’m in the club
Wasted
I want to go home
And be with my baby
Dance
You want to dance now?
I’d rather be home...
Have I outgrown this?
Am I supposed to be having fun yet?
Men push passed all drenched in sweat
Think they’re the best that I can get
Everyone else seems to enjoy this more than me
And I'm supposed to be having fun?
I worry though, that maybe did I leave the oven on?
And then the house burns down,
In fact it burns right to the ground,
And from the ashes nothing but more sorrow will arise
And it will be my fault
Because I came here
And you ask me
"Shall we dance?"
And I’m supposed to be having fun.
And I’m supposed to be having fun!
And if the house is gone and I am homeless on the street
With nothing in my mouth to eat or shoes upon my feet
And as my tired bones heave my possessions in a cart
I will know for sure deep in my heart
It was because I came here.
Shall we dance?
My body will be thrown of course into an unmarked grave
Forgotten as I’m judged for the mistakes that I have made.
And as I burn in hell for living in delicious sin
I have to blame myself for the predicament I’m in
And I’m supposed to be having fun
I’m supposed to be having fun?!
Midnight
I’d rather be naked
Under a duvet
At home with my baby
Midnight
Has long since gone
And as the sun rises
I turn into stone!!

HELLO OLD TIMER
A song about why you should always be kind to the old loner at the gay bar
DEMO (partial)
Bona to vada your dolly old eke
I don’t look at you like you’re a freak
I see the new set with disgust in their eyes
As if you’re already dead, covered in flies
Arriving in style as if they own the whole bar
Like exotic princesses who’ve come from afar
But you know the truth because you’ve been here before
And watched thousands more of them pass through those doors
There once was a time when you felt just like that
And you’d spend all day preening yourself like a cat
You’d sneak out at night and you’d come here to pose
And dressed in your finery look down your nose
At anyone you felt wore uglier clothes!
Alone in the wild you were under attack
With a target always on your back
But in a group you felt that you could be strong
In a group you felt like you might belong
Together you can face the day
Whatever drama comes your way
In a world that wishes you were dead
You would choose to live instead
In technicolor surround sound
As if your feet don’t touch the ground
And un-disowned you’d form a bond
That would extend far far beyond
A private life of secrecy
In fact you’d form a family
Encouraging the brave obsession
To overcome the gay oppression
You were there throughout the fight
A champion of equal rights
Which didn’t come through thick or fast
It’s amazing how your patience last
But success came with a cost
And one by one by one you lost
Your friends, your lovers
No-one cared
You didn’t know if you’d be spared
As sickness took more than a few
Beloved friends so dear to you
And as they each died all the shame
Overshadowed lives and names
Hidden far from public view
They died alone as you might too
And even though you did survive
Your grief is keeping you alive
Your straight friends couldn’t comprehend
Although they tried to be your friend
Wiping when you leave your seat
And burning what you use to eat
Their children take up all their days
Which is a blessing anyways
As now with little that you share
Mutually it’s hard to care
And finding little to talk about
Is why you choose to not reach out
Instead you live a life of sin
Expressing shame you feel within
Imposed upon you by the world
You wish to have been born a girl
Just so that you can love a man
Every way that you possibly can
Before pride, fierceness, the house down, yesss
You were just a gayboy in a dress
Trying on your mother’s shoes
Whilst she was busy making food
You knew somehow that this was wrong
Although it filled your heart with song
And so you hid it in deep inside
And steeled yourself instead of cried
And took a wife and sired a brat
Although you never wanted that
And hid yourself, denied your heart
Until it tore you right apart
Perceived as weak but you are great
You endure through so much hate
And fought such battles all the way
that these queens can reign in this bar today
I salute you friend, and raise a glass
Let these young queens show their arse
One day soon their youth will stop
And suddenly their hair will drop
And just like you and me
They’ll also turn 30, 40, 60
It will be their turn to scoff
When some young queen starts mouthing off
The reason I know every word to be true
Is because they were me and one day I’ll be you


THE NEON LIGHTS
A song about being in an unhappy relationship...
The neon lights flicker on the wall
What did it matter to them that I’m unhappy?
Doors swing on their hinges back and forth
Back and forth and back and forth and
My heart beats out an irregular rhythm
Another fly is on the wall
Laughing, joking, pointing, laughing
As anxious as I was before
Nothing that you say can appease me
My heart beats out an irregular rhythm
Do I like the way that you make me feel
I don’t know if I like the way that I feel
Words cannot describe exactly how I feel
Inside
I’m heavy from the jewels that you bought me
Though that’s not to say that I’m ungrateful.
Your perfume still helps me sleep at night
But when I dream of you I have a nightmare
Do I like the way that you make me feel
I don’t know if I like the way that I feel
Words cannot describe exactly how I feel
Inside
If I wasn't scared to be lonely
I would deal with you in a phone call
Life gets in the way of such simpple plans...
Do I like the way that you make me feel
I don’t know if I like the way that I feel
Words cannot describe exactly how I feel
Inside
EVERY ROSE
A song about a wretched person
EVERY ROSE
The day begins and ends
With thoughts about the color blue
Glancing through old magazines
And reading about yesterday’s news
You bathe in a bathtub and dry yourself in tears
You eat with a fork and play around with the knife
Every rose has a thorn in your side
Every time you smile you cry
You say your bitter
But somewhere inside you’re sweet
It’s hard to get through the day but you feel obliged to try
Your nights are short or long with fucked up dreams
Your heart is colder than ice cream
You never touch sweet things at all
You worry about being too self indulgent
But shouldn’t worry your little head
Focus on instead how to get out of bed
You’re really not that much fun anymore
We’re you ever that much fun before?
Ev'ry rose has a thorn in your side
Ev'ry time you smile you cry
You say your bitter
but somewhere inside you’re sweet
You bite your hands like they’re made of meat
You hate to be around family
You burden them with company
You don’t feel involved but you set yourself apart
You wonder how and when you’ll fall apart
Your beating heart is deafening
Oh you wish it would stop so you could fall asleep again
You play with your fork
And fantasize with the knife
You’re not brave enough to take control of your life


NO PLACE LIKE HOME
A song about feeling unwelcome at home
Please make yourself at home in my house
Myself, I never felt that way
Even in my home today
Home
Where the pepperpot and the roasting pan
And the staircase and the ceiling fan
Trigger times I’d soon forget
Of sadness, anguish, hate, regret
Home
With Swarovski birds and decorative spoons
I wait for death in the living room
The anemic hum in the stale air
Appliances moan with my despair
And the tired smell of potpourri
Brings it all right back to me
Suddenly I’m ten again
With no escape, without a friend
Waiting for the pain to end
Hiding from a belt, a fist,
Wondering if I’d be missed
So no, I don’t want to go home
Home
The wood chip and the garden path
The clock that ticks on my behalf
The sofa bed, the oven door
That table lamp, that chest of drawers
Home
Where I was locked in and controlled
Incarcerated, no parole
Under lock and under key
And under constant scrutiny
Home
I walked on eggshells day and night
And everything became a fight
Honestly afraid to laugh
For all the Shame on my behalf
Home now is where I lay my hat
And keep my things
And feed my cat
Home now is just the house im in
four walls, a roof, a tub, some gin
I overfill it hoarding chintz
To brighten up the gloom
I suffocate from sorrow right here in this room
But if this place is razed to the ground
I’d stop a moment to look around
On a pile of ashes, in a heap of dirt
are still those years suffering and hurt
Looking in the rubble for scraps of affection
Desperate for a push in an opposite direction
Desperately seeking some kind of affirmation
I'm always searching in the trash for precious things
Unshackling my limbs from chains that bind
Ill run away from what I’d like to leave behind
I’ll run away from...
Home
The wardrobe handles, and the shed
The doorbell chime, the child-size bed
Monotony runs through it all
That sadness there behind closed doors
I still try not to click my heels
Despite how tempting it may fell
Just in case I wind up back at
Home
Top bunk in a prison cell
Is this life or is it hell?
The trauma of my childhood
Hasn’t done me any good
There’s so much more I won’t reveal
Because of how it makes me feel
Anyway, on to my escape
My new life will of course be great
Ill fall in love and start again
My lover will be my best friend
Just him and me against it all
If I’d go down he’d take the fall
And like a phoenix we’ll both rise
I’d be the apple of his eye
I’m glad for you your life’s a breeze
Belonging everywhere you go
I’ve sought this all around the world
And still I’m told that there’s no place like
Home
Where my husband tells me how useless I am
And doesn’t really give a damn
Criticizing every move
As if he’s got something to prove
Home
A place we can perpetuate
All our trauma, all the hate
And act like everything is fine
Although it’s like this all the time
Home
Where the dog gets far more love than me
And alone at night I just sit and feel
Obsessing on this burning need
I've always had
To just be freed
To somehow escape being me
And all these thoughts twist in my head
Until I wish that I was dead
Home
I just need a space to breathe
And somewhere to believe
That there’s room in the world for someone like me
OVER YOU
A song for a broken heart
I am so foolish
I knew you would break my heart
Though I’ve known from the start
Now I’m falling apart
Fun while it lasted
But I still want more
Don’t you?
Who benefits from misery?
Why did I let myself do it?
I swore I’d not love again
Then you arrived and you shake my foundations
My heart is in the palm your hand!!
It’s what I wished for
In fact, it was more
But All my dreams have
Now been taken from me
I’m just not used to that kind of attention
Easily I fell in over my head
I must have scared you with how much I want this
I just cannot get you out of my head
You made me so happy
But now I’ve gone mad
The first I is what I had hoped for
The second I could not anticipate
I’ll look back fondly
but not for a while
First, I must deal with the pain
Forget
And get over myself
Forget and get over you


SHALL WE RECONCILE?
A song for an old friend
Shall we Reconcile
Even though it’s been a while
It’s shocking how much time has passed
Looking back upon the past
Shall we try again?
It wasn’t yesterday, my friend.
I’d like to ask if I can take your hand
No-one else knows what we share
Nobody else would even care
But we were both there way back when
We were close once, can we be again?
Can we move on together?
Even though we took a break
We needed distance
But took more time than we should have taken
Can we Reconnect?
Can we synchronize?
The question now is really
Whether we can unify
Are we still alike?
Do we still share anything?
I feel this is auspicious
And i hope that you agree
Time flies so fast
No-one can make it last
Unlike the past
When time stood still
there was no looking backwards then
(Instrumental bridge)
I realize at läst
That distance doesn’t change the päst
Lets make up for all that time
Shall we recombine?
I hope we can reconcile
Even though it’s been a while
I mean why not?
I’ll give it all I’ve got to give
After all, We have only one life to live
I'LL STILL BE ANGRY WHEN I'M SOBER
A song from a dysfunctional marriage
DEMO 1 (cunty) // DEMO 2 (operatic)
I'll still be angry when I'm sober
Nothing will have changed
I could leave you just like that!
It’s easily arranged
I’m telling you in certain terms I’ve had it up to there
Unfortunately, you’re too self-absorbed
to even care
Something like a magic trick
right before my eyes
My true love has transformed themself
to someone I despise
Im telling you directly now
So listen good and well
You have turned my happy home
into a living hell
Outrageous and not likely
that I’m the one at fault
Blah blah blah don’t talk to me about a pinch of salt
There’s no way at the heart of this
that I’m the one to blame
Although for sure tomorrow
will be word-for-word the same
It does take two to tango, there are two sides taking score
Which isn’t what I wanted though
and don’t want any more
So somehow let’s make up again
Like everything’s alright
Routinely I am sure we’ll carry on tomorrow night
Uneasy peace but it’s ok
It gets us through another day
You haven’t heard a word I’ve said
So fuck it all, I’m off to bed
I couldn’t sleep, let’s take a walk
neutral ground where we can talk
And rake over old coals again
Until I drive you round the bend
And you will drive me up a wall
And raise your voice and start it all
Driving me in turn to drink
The only way I’ll sleep a wink.
The nightly circus thus begins
So fill my glass and strap on in
//
I’m equally at fault.
How can I forgive you for that?
It’s difficult to hate you
when I know we’re playing games
We argue about nothing though
And every fights the same
//
I'll still be angry when you’re sober
Nothing will have changed
I should kill you. Thought of that?
It’s your fault I’m deranged
I’m telling you my darling
you are getting on my nerves
Keep it up, and maybe
you will get what you deserve
Something wicked like a curse
right before my face
My lover has transformed themself
Into a disgrace!
Im telling you directly now
So hear ye, listen up
Don’t try to interrupt me
I am ready to erupt
Totally Impossible that I’m the one at fault
Although sometimes I have to take that
with a pinch of salt
There’s no way at the core of this
that I’m the one to blame
Though I can be a dark cloud
and tomorrow looks like rain
You never miss a beat
you’re very good at taking score
Which isn’t what I asked you for
and don’t want any more
So somehow let’s make up again,
find our inner peace
Tomorrow you’ll transform once more
from beauty to a beast
Uneasy truce for one More night
It gets us through till our next fight
It won’t sink in, a word I’ve said
So To hell with it, I’m off to bed
I couldn’t sleep, I needed air
And you pretend like I don’t care.
We pick at wounds and our scabs bleed
Which really isn’t what we need.
I bang my head against the wall
You raise your voice above it all
You stomp around and cause a scene
You know exactly what I mean
The nightly circus thus begins
Go fill your glass I’ll strap on in


MARY JANE
A song about marijuana
DEMO 1 // DEMO 2 // DEMO 3 // DEMO 4
Mary Jane
Mary Jane
I wish we’d never met
I can’t remember what it is you’re helping me forget!
Mary Jane
Mary Jane
I wish it wasn’t true
Mary Jane
Mary Jane
that I depend on you
Mary Jane you’re with me from the
Morning to the night
You’re strong for me when i am weak
And haven’t strength to fight
You coddle me protecting from the hardship of the world
You blanket me in kindness
youre my special little girl
Mary Jane you’ve been a constant through my adult life
If you were human not a plant I’d take you for my wife
But sometimes there are times when I do want to let you go
But your loving kindness is the best love that I know
Mary Jane
Mary Jane
I wish we’d never met
I don’t want to remember what you’re helping me forget
ROAD KILL
A song about finding your strength
Driving through the country roads
Every hundred feet I see
Roadkill roadkill roadkill roadkill
Smell It in the air
Crunch under my wheels
When I get up in my feels
I think of you and all I see is roadkill! Roadkill! Roadkill!!
Armadillos, raccoons, possums, cats
All lying there dead
How about that
Innocent lives ruined and spoilt
Pause for thought as they lie there and rot
They bake in the sun and flies flock to the smell
Remember how you turned my life into hell?
Turtles, birds, gators, coyote
The smell in the air makes me feel so dirty
Food for thought
How about that
Innocence, happiness, banished and gone
In the blink of an eye you hit it, you run
I often felt hit by a truck
Unfair comparison? Don’t give a fuck.
False equivalence, for I am not dead
I just get lost inside my head
And on these winding country roads
Driving over bats and toads
Roadkill roadkill la la la la la
Roadkill roadkill
La la la crunch
Not scared of you no more, no sir,
I eat your kind for lunch
Roadkill roadkill la la la a squish
My foot on the pedal I’m outta here, bish


OLD FLAME
A song in a Swinglish style about the one that got away
It’s remarkable really
Being so aware of what I need
So involved in my emotions
yet detached from how I feel
Old flame
Do your lips still taste the same?
Do they still taste the same , your kisses?
Is it still the same, your smile?
Maybe, will it be nice? To see you after all these times.
Maybe, will it feel right?
To have you close enough to touch
I think too much…
I think too much is never enough
Even strangers see it simply
Surely they can’t all be wrong
When we are in a room together
There is electricity
Old flame
You still look at me the way you used to
You have that look in your eyes also, too
Old flame
Can you keep me warm?
Can you thaw my heart?
Unfreeze my soul?
We should have spent our lives together
Instead we just grew old
I gave you everything I had!
You left me in the cold.
I’ve almost forgotten, but I have not
I’ve almost forgotten, not all, but a lot...
You still look at me the way you would
But I’m not sure if you should!
AROUND MY NECK
A song reminiscing about a dangerous ex
DEMO
I could burst into tears or song because I feel so lonely
And there’s no-one to console me so ok here comes a solo
I’ll raise my voice out loud,
You’re not here, so no need to fear it
But I’ll sing as if you are for you’re the one that ought to hear it.
Around my neck is a charm
I still wear a lock of your hair
We shall see in the future if the memory will break me
And we shall see if my heart can be brave and keep on beating
For my scars still remind me of those nights we shared together
My constant reminder of what’s lurking in your shadow
you are violent, tempestuous,
Outrageous, unremorseful
I’ve snatches of specifics
But would rather not recall them
I blocked them out so not to see the writing on the wall then
Around my neck there’s a noose
And you keep pulling it tighter
Could I get over you even if I really wanted to?
Under my bed in a box I still keep all of my journals
I still read them sometimes to re-live my disillusionment
Do I wish it had never happened?
Maybe, but that would be too easy
For I wouldn’t want to miss out on the pleasure that you gave me
After the pleasure
You stole the joy from my life for a very long time
Which I haven’t forgiven
Though loneliness plays with my mind
Around my neck are your hands
You still have me in a choke hold
We shall see in the future if these memories will break me
Under my bed in a box I still keep all your love letters
Will the past still seduce me though the future’s clearly better?
No, this should be locked away
Saved for such a rainy day
When im alone to reminisce
And think how little I really miss
For a yolk belongs in an egg
Not on my shoulders, last I checked
So take this load I used to bear
Do what you want with it, I don’t care
I’ll just keep myself correct
Without your dead weight around my neck


IMOGEN
A song about the insufferable girls I went to college with
DEMO 1 // DEMO 2 // DEMO 3 // DEMO 4
Imogen Imogen Imogen
Your name rolls of my tongue
Imogen Imogen Imogen
you make me wanna
Come
on over to your place
Let’s have dinner
I’ll prepare us something light
I hope you wear the silk chemise
But wear whatever dress you please
Your beauty drops me to my knees
Imogen Imogen Imogen
A different polish on every finger
Imogen Imogen Imogen
When she came back from Goa she had a tattoo
Your dress looks so pretty
Over there on the floor
Your panties hanging up there on the door
If you’re looking for your bra
it can’t have gone too far
You’re truffling for underwear
I think some of its over there
Your blouse is draped over that chair
The one we sat on when you braided my hair
Imogen Imogen Imogen
Will you ever finish your useless degree?
Imogen Imogen Imogen
Let’s have children.
Two. No, three.
Imogen Imogen Imogen
Tell me more about your gap yah
Adventures with Tilly, Millie, and Billy
Imogen Imogen Imogen
And all the good you did for those orphans in Nicaragua
Your sandals are over there by the hearth
You’ve broken an earring, I think, for here’s half.
Your socks are in the wash ‘cause they were sour
And the cycles been on over half an hour
Which is to say there’s a half an hour yet
So if we’re quick, on your marks get set.
Imogen Imogen Imogen
I love you to throw me around the room
Imogen Imogen Imogen
If I could reach that high I’d hand you the moon
Imogen Imogen Imogen
When I arrived you’d been crying, but as I leave you’ve a smile
Imogen Imogen Imogen
It’d be great to see you More than only once in a while
Imogen Imogen Imogen
Your kisses taste like persimmon candy
Imogen Imogen Imogen
Are there advantages to having an unusual name?
Your scarf’s up on the lamp up there where it was flung
It catches the light, casts a colorful shadow
My watch is over there on the counter
The alarms about to ring
Telling you one thing
That it’s time!
It’s time!
Imogen Imogen Imogen
You were fast asleep in a dream about horses
Imogen Imogen Imogen
They were brightly colored and lived on an island
Imogen Imogen Imogen
Wake up! You dozed off again.
You said you’ve been up for days.
Partying across time zones with glamorous gays
If you wanna take a shower that’s fine
I’d sooner take one here than at mine
We can lather up and rub a dub dub
We haven’t don’t it in the tub!
You can comb my hair, massage my back
I’ll quickly shave my sack and crack.
We’ll dry off fast, towel each other down,
And once again we’ll go to town:
We’ll fling the toweling robes asunder,
Clapping cheeks like peals of thunder!
Imogen Imogen Imogen
Unconventionally you refuse cutlery
Imogen Imogen Imogen
It’s charming, I think, not off-putting at all
Imogen Imogen Imogen
Having a lie in at silly o’clock
Imogen Imogen Imogen
Can’t help it, I love it when you suck on
Persimmon candies
I love the taste of those persimmon candies
On your lips
When I kiss you goodnight
And kiss you awake
Imogen Imogen Imogen
Who are you today?
I'm often attracted to people
Who remind me of you
Imogen Imogen Imogen
You whimsical thing, I see you humming tuneless songs
Imogen Imogen Imogen
It’s funny to see you startle so easily when I say "boo!"
SHE A COUNTRY GIRL
An American song about a country girl off to the big city
She a country girl,
The very best in the whole wide world.
Gone off to the city for a career.
Born right here in Texas,
But grew up in Tennessee,
She gone trav’lin yonder chasing dreams.
Ain’t no misogynist,
It’s just those lips I really miss.
So come on home now darlin’,
Where you belong.
Got herself an education,
Knows about all kinda things,
She all fancy with her suits and diamond rings.
You can take the girl outta the country,
But not the country outta the girl.
You can lead a horse to water,
Only a girl can drive you to drink
You can take the girl outta the country,
A mighty shame though, dontcha think?
You can drive my truck ‘cross Texas,
Only a girl can drive you to drink.
Swapped her pick up truck for the metro,
Gave her daddy back the keys,
Said ‘I’m headin’ for the big apple,
Where I won’t be needing these’.
She hung up her Stetson,
Swapped her cowboy boots for heels,
Boxed her smith and Wesson,
And got all in her feels.
She walked around the cornfield
Said a prayer under the moon,
She promised all the horses
That she would come back soon.
But she’s now drinking cocktails,
Or busy at a brunch.
She hasn’t time for lookin’ back
Although I have a hunch
That though she dropped her accent
And doesn’t drink sweet tea,
She’ll always be my Southern belle,
always sweet to me.
Oh darlin, come on home soon.
Nothin here has changed.
The only thing about me different is maybe that I’ve aged,
But in my heart no different.
I still love you so.
In fact, your loving kindness is the only love I know.
I pine towards the city
Sending love along the line
I see you in reflections almost all the time.
Could you see me in the city, with my guitar and my plaid?
Forget them city slickers, I’m the best you ever had.
Do you see me there on sidewalks, on puddles in the rain?
On dirt tracks in the country them I see you just the same.
And in the gleam of sunlight on my tractors glossy edge
and in the topiary, am I in love with a hedge?
I see you in my minds eye though you’re far away from me,
Hurry home my southern belle,
So’s you can marry me.


SINFUL WICKED WAYS
A song about being a vampire and using dating apps to find prey
DEMO
The alarm clock does what it’s supposed to
Rudely bring me back to life
I was happy in my dream
I was just about to..
Nevermind
Up pops the toaster
I’m underachieving already
I’ve barely brushed my teeth and whoosh the day is gone
I’m anxious about nothing
That’s how I pass the time
Anticipating both with dread and trepidation my temptation
As the dusk falls twilight turns to night
Like the wolf I must obey the moon
dark arts, daybreak comes too soon
I have to satisfy my hunger
Craving pounds of human flesh
Raking through the gutter //
I’ll find the one that got away
To mend my battered heart one day
Until then I’ll enjoy the perks of all my sinful wicked ways
My sinful wicked ways, my sinful wicked ways! My sinful wicked ways my sinful wicked ways!
And in the morning as the world awakes
And rubs it’s daylight in my face
The emptiness I feel inside reminds me that I’m still alive
Notifications
Substitute and compromise
Human interactions, facilitate dissatisfaction
Am i a villain?
Swiping left and swiping right
Making a selection
Deciding who will last the night
A predator
I’m preying on the weak
On those with too much shame to speak
Some people launch themselves at monsters
I’m anxious about nothing
And so I pass the time
Anticipating both with dread and trepidation my temptation
As the dusk falls....
Sinful wicked...
I WROTE YOUR NAME IN THE SAND
A song about letting go of an unrequited love
It’s a cool night by the ocean
A quiet evening breeze
Gently rustles through the fronds
of silhouetted trees
Incessantly, cicadas serenade the bugs and frogs
Retirees and ex pats walk along the beach their dogs
And up aboeve, a crescent moon hangs naked in the sky
Casually illuminating strangers passing by
One after another passes, will one catch my eye?
Competing with the sunset they would have to really try.
I write a name in the sand
The ocean tide nearly takes it away
I wipe a tear away
Because you left without saying goodbye
Traversing the horizon I can see a little boat
It strikes me unexpectedly symbolic of my hope
Wary of the lighthouse, the stars help plot it’s path
With the wind behind it I wish well on it’s behalf
I wonder where it’s going? Are they on their way to sea?
Speaking allegorically those sailors could be me.
A group of hippies strum guitars on washed up bits of wood
I’d join them in a singalong but not sure if I should
I don’t want to impose on anyone my misery
I’ll sing a secret song the wind can take right out to sea
Laalaa la La.......
I write your name in the sand
The ocean came and took it away
Im filled with sadness and pain
Because you left without saying goodbye
A small drop in the ocean, I’m giving it my tears
Maybe in return it will wash away the years
Wasted running down dead ends and retracing my steps
It’s time to leave you in the past, I think it’s for the best
I wrote your name in the sand
The ocean came and took it away
Im free of sorrow and pain
Because with this I’m saying goodbye


WHAT's GOOD FOR THE GOOSE
A song acknowledging someone's misgivings
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You ruined today
That’s another day gone
Why are you doing this to me?
Another day gone
Just a day of my life
Clearly it means nothing to you
The untruths and lies that you prioritze
Are turning you into someone I despise
And your temper's disgusting
Your attitude too
But I’m totally helpless there’s nothing to do
But to keep on pretending that some day you’ll change
And that somehow the pieces will be rearranged
And the game could continue on leveler field
You’d take into account how your words make me feel
And not sharpen them spear like and aimed at my heart
Because your Jeckl and Hyde act has torn me apart!
Obviously this is too much to expect
So carry on letting your mouth run unchecked
And whilst your forked tongue is flapping and loose
Remember that saying:
“What’s good for the goose”.
Ooh! The goose!! Oooh the goose!
MORE FOOL YOU
Another song acknowledging someone's misgivings
I can’t help but feel
I may have dodged a bullet
Yes I lose
but you lose too
So my darling
More fool you
Yes I lose
but you loose too
So my darling
More fool you
More fool you ooh ooh ooh
More fool you ooh ooh ooh
Imagine
To have the world at your feet
And just kick it away
Like a can down a street
One red flag after another
A whole parade of rouge
Crimson, scarlet, vermillion, maroon
How sad that it must end so soon
You have sown chaos in my heart
But come harvest time
Abandoned the plough
Yes I loose
But you lose too
So my darling
More fool you
More fool you ooh ooh ooh
More fool you ooh ooh ooh
Yes I loose
But you lose too
So my darling
More fool you
More fool you ooh ooh ooh
More fool you ooh ooh ooh


HEAVEN KNOWS
Scene from a dysfunctional relationship
It doesn't happen of a sudden
Things like this they happen slowly
Bit by bit as we grow older
More and more I start to wonder if this is the only way?
You're like this more and more each day
So round and round and round we go
In endless circles heaven knows
For years I thought that I could change you
Back to who I fell in love with
Many years have come and gone
And with them both my youth and patience
I suppose I've been naive!
Its hard to know what to believe
So round and round and round we go
In endless circles heaven knows
Must I divest from my-self just to be somebody?
And must I change who I am to accommodate you?
For heaven knows that I've tried to be patient with you
Heaven knows that I've tried...
Ev'ry day it grows a little bit by bit its getting stronger
Ev'ry day I hunger for a change and now I'm starving hungry
But it is a bitter pill
A thought that leaves me feeling ill
So round and round we go
In end-less circles heaven knows
Must I divest from myself just to be somebody?
And must I change who I am to accommodate you?
For heaven knows that I've tried to be patient with you
Heaven knows that I've tried
Is what I'd leave behind
Better than what I'd find?
Is it a waste of time,
Seeking some peace of mind?
Heaven truly knows that I have tried
Heaven truly knows that I have tried!
Must I divest from myself just to be somebody?
And must I change who I am to accommodate you?
For heaven knows that I've tried to be patient with you
Heaven knows that I've tried